A New Twist

Has it really been since September 16th since I posted last? Oh my goodness what a bad "egg" I am! (haha, I crack myself up!) (HA! another one!)

Well the short version to this story is that I was coasting along. Seriously I was a skate right into the finish line. Embryo retrieval from my donor Brianne was scheduled the week of Halloween. I found this to be VERY lucky because it's my favorite holiday! Brianne and I were on the same meds, our cycles were synced up, we were in unison!!!

I went for my "baseline" check last Thursday. Now the deal with baseline is it's the pre-show. The doc gets out his magic wand, aims for the hoo-hoo and takes a peek around in there. I'm not sure what he thinks is in there since the last time he looked in there just 3-4 weeks earlier. But you know, Jimmy Hoffa's body has still not been found.....

Anyway I got a "thumbs up" from Dr. A. Now I wasn't my usual chipper self as I was sitting in that clinic room. Aside from the fact that you know magic wand time isn't really all that fun, I just was having a few surreal moments.

First, I was back in that blasted office. Now I hadn't been there since May. I hadn't been there since I had my own egg retrieval and my precious 3 eggs all died day 2 of fertilization. I had nothing to go into transfer with. This is one of the reasons that we moved to donor egg. My eggs just are old and moldy. So I'm having a bit of a "moment" getting myself all back together being in a place that had such an icky memory. Dr. A is very intuitive (for those of you who are medical that's pretty rare in a person that has MD behind their name...nurses on the other hand...) Anyway, Dr. A says, "What is wrong with you??" So I explain to him how it's all surreal to me, it's a bit of a bummer to be back, it sucks to be in these circumstances and it really blows that I gotta entrust the most important thing in my life to some chick named Brianne whom I'll never meet. He was very reassuring, very sweet and explained that he'd worked with Brianne before and she was "top notch." Brianne was "the perfect donor" Brianne was "smart and right on top of everything." Okay...actually that does help Dr. A!

I walked out of the "Magic Wand" room, and the office staff give me all kinds of kudos for picking Brianne as my donor. By the time I leave I'm pretty much thinking I"m winning the Nobel Prize in Science for being so smart in donor choices! Ironically, Dr. A thought he should send me to get an Estradiol level, just to "make you feel better about everything." I'm thinking, seriously dude, I don't need to get stuck with a needle to feel better. For the record, the level came back perfect.

Again, back to my coasting. I was getting excited!! Retrieval and transfer were just around the corner, the weather was changing, and I'm still on a high from choosing Egg Donor Amazing Woman!

Then Monday came.