Hello Old Blog!

Actually....I didn't find the blog, I found the picture of the eggs in the bowl first on my computer....which reminded me of this blog! I have to say, I find that to be the most hilarious part of getting back here! So, to blog, or not to blog...that is the question.

Admittedly, I've seen some pretty impressive blogs over the past few years. Really cool templates, pictures all over, amazing graphics. THATS the blog I want. Where's that blog exactly? I'd like someone to create all that for me and then pick me up and plop me down in the middle of it and start typing away!

So much of that part of the journey I had forgotten....so I am glad that I wrote it down. Just to close the loop since my last post(2 years ago!). There were 6 embyros that made it to blastocyte stage. (again, this ratios thing....18 fertilized eggs, quickly down to 6). BUT they were the best 6 obviously because they made it to blast. Reproductive Endocrinologists have really made advances over the years in picking and choosing the perfect eggs. Essentially, docs were transferring "duds" into uteruses (hmm...is that really the plural??), but no one knew it. Lots and lots of heartache surrounding that process. Thankfully we are a little more savvy in giving eggs & sperm in petri dishes the best possible ways to make themselves into embryoes. All for a small fee of course. :-)

2 were transferred to me and 4 were put in cryo. Just for the record, it cost $350.00 to put them on a plane and send them out to Colorado to the cryo bank. Seriously? I mean they are so tiny, they really can't take up that much room....especially a whole seat!

I DID get pregnant with 2 of those embryoes....with twins! However, at about the 6th week I miscarried them. I'm quite sure this is the exact reason I stopped writing this blog. Actually, it's the exact reason I stopped writing anything at all. It was a long, long grieving process. I wasn't on a roller coaster ride any longer....I'd been thrown off a cliff. The bridge was out.....

I am blessed with amazing family and wonderful friends. Even as I type it, it doesn't sound as much as it really means. Most of these people have watched me go through hell and back dealing with infertility. The endless medical tests, the highs and lows, the crazy outburts (granted, yes, some of that is my personality :-P), the destruction of my body from hormone therapy, the emotional carnage I found myself in. It's this network of folks who love me and care about me that has kept my head above water. Forever grateful.....

And now....through the amazing gift of one of my dearest friends.....I will be blessed with a baby girl in April.

All evening I have been online trying to find a baby book for our child. As you can tell our story is just more than "mom" "dad" and "our pets" There were alot of people who are a part of this child's story....and she needs to know every single piece of it. So, I'm searching for baby books that fall under the "alternative" family. Finding the blog helps me to fill in those pages....provided I find that perfect book of course!